Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Odd Day

Odd Day
Today has been an extremely odd day for me. Two months ago, I resigned from my full time job to pursue what has become my passion – personal coaching (or life coaching). I came upon this career four years ago while watching Oprah. Since then, I have been obsessed with this career path. I researched the internet and read books from some of the biggest names in the field, Tony Robbins, Martha Beck, Dan Miller and many more.
One day, my supervisor asked me what my long term goals were. I expressed to her my interest in life coaching and how I would love to move into this career path someday. It wasn’t long after this that she connected me with David Muraco, Personal and Professional Coach and CEO of In The Zone-Personal and Professional Coaching Solutions. I immediately scheduled a meeting with David. I was excited that there was a life coach in the area. Most of the coaches I researched were in major metropolitan areas.

I met with David in August of 2009 and his energy and optimism immediately intrigued me. Shortly after that, he offered to coach and mentor me. Since we started working together, I have accomplished many of the goals I set for myself. However, one of those goals seemed extremely lofty at the time – pursue life coaching as a full time career. During one of our coaching sessions, David asked me when I thought it would be realistic for me to move into coaching as a full time job. I told him there is no way I could accomplish this anytime soon, it would be at least five years. And I had a million excuses, or limiting beliefs as I like to call them, as to why this wouldn’t happen any time soon, if ever.

It’s been a year since I had that conversation with David and here I sit – pursuing my dream of life coaching full time through In The Zone, and eventually within my own business. From the time we had that conversation, I started telling my husband, closest friends, and family about my goal. I started taking small steps toward the goal and envisioned myself in this lifestyle. I reached out to people who had left their job to open a business, or go into the coaching field and picked their brain for tips or advice. I continued to read anything I could get my hands on regarding not only coaching, but also entrepreneurship and owning a small business.

Then, two months ago I did what I consider to be the scariest thing in my life so far (I was seriously nauseous and thought I was going to hyperventilate). I sat down with my supervisor and gave my two months notice, making my last day April 29, 2011. I knew I was taking a chance because I could have been told to take my stuff and leave that day. However, I wanted to finish up the semester, and give them enough time to find my replacement and help train this person. I was fortunate that this worked out in my favor and I left my job on good terms.

The last week of work was surreal for me. I felt numb. Everyone was SO supportive of me. No matter how crazy they may have thought I was - leaving my full time job for something that wasn’t secure, nor producing a paycheck just yet - they never passed any negativity my way. I felt blessed to have such wonderful people surrounding me. That will be what I miss most about my past job, the supportive family atmosphere. So I left my office on April 29th, not really processing what was going on, or that I wouldn’t be going back.

After this, my husband and I went on an eight day vacation to the Caribbean. I thought this would be the perfect way to relax and then come back ready to hit my new career head on. I wasn’t as relaxed as I would have liked. I was really anxious and I didn’t sleep well. Everyday I said out loud, “What have I done? Am I crazy for leaving my job when there are a lot of people looking for work?” My husband would reassure me, as he always does, that I did the right thing. He has faith in me, and I just need to take things a day at a time. I was already worried about money, and wandered if we didn’t save enough, and will our relationship become a mess because of our decision to pursue my dream? A lot of worrying was going on…

So now that this day has come, the day that I have been looking forward to for a while, I thought I would feel extremely excited and energized this morning – I didn’t. Even though I planned my schedule out ahead of time for today, I still felt overwhelmed this morning and not sure where to start. I am so used to spending my day in an office with choices to make that pertain specifically to my job. Now I feel that I have A LOT of choices to make on a daily basis (ie – should I do the laundry or work on my business plan). I think organization, time management, and priorities will take on a whole new meaning to me. I am thankful that I reached out to a good friend to share with her how my day was going. She sent me the perfect email to assure me that I have what it takes to make this happen, and she provided some great ideas to try to keep myself focused (she was definitely my coach for today!). I am sure as time goes on this will become the new normal for me and the days won’t feel as odd…